NaPoWriMo Day 30. The final day . . .

It seems odd that my final poem for this month of writing a new poem every day, should have the subject matter of suicide. I read on my friend, John Malone’s blog today a story that immediately spoke to me, and I knew I wanted to write my final poem for April about his blog post.

Suicide is a subject often talked around, rather than talked about. It needs to be talked about though, because in not talking of it, we isolate those who are already feeling isolated, alone, and wanting to end their pain. The RU OK Day campaign, that encourages people to check up on their friends is one that seems to be gaining traction. I hope that being asked can help people to realise they are not alone, and that their family and friends truly do care.






No one knows for sure,

what made this end seem right,

suicide brought an end for this one man,

end to pain, end of life.

But it brings much to those remaining,

questions without answers,

ideas that can never be confirmed

by the one who knew most.

The fifth commandment says do not kill,

considers suicide a grave sin,

and perhaps that is one thing

that brought it on – when even

the religion that has meant so much,

let him down. I can’t know,

no-one can really know, what it is

that will make a person end their life …

belief in the sanctity of life, cast aside

as they may have felt cast aside too,

by their God.


7 thoughts on “NaPoWriMo Day 30. The final day . . .

  1. johnlmalone says:

    wow! I don’t think I’ve seen that broached before: religion as a contributing factor to suicide — except of course for suicide bombers who embrace just as eagerly as they embrace their God. I like how you’ve said it is a sublect talked around rather than about


    • When I read this man’s story on your blog post, I could almost feel the pain he was feeling, torn between the pain and the fifth commandment. I’m not a religious person, but I deeply believe in the spirit that’e there inside all of us. I felt this man’s spirit was being stretch and stretched and it snapped and he was gone.


  2. johnlmalone says:

    I can see him there in his red woooly jumper and his glinting leprechaun eyes 🙂 he was the last person I thought would have suicided


  3. Interesting perspective. Quite right that we can’t know, but one would have to assume that each experience is different and this may well be the feeling of some poor souls who are both suicidal and religious. I’m aware of other religious connections surrounding particular suicides. Some people beleive that the sin they’ve already committed that causes them their shame and anguish has made them unworthy of heaven and God’s love and forgiveness. Other’s hope that God will forgive this sin and understand their pain, and that heaven will heal the pain they feel on earth. Many others have been saved by their faith, but not enough. Religious beliefs, interpretations or affiliations aside, being sick enough to end your pain by ending your life is truly gut wrenching, and it does need to be addressed. The public health system fails sufferers every day and society fails them with ignorance and fear. Well done for creating another provocative piece.


    • Thank you for you thoughtful and well considered response Rachael. My knowledge of religious matters is woefully limited, but I know what I feel in my heart and my mind, and I know good from bad.

      People shouldn’t have to suffer so much that they feel their only option is to end their life – it is wrong in many ways, and shouldn’t ever happen. It will though, over and over again. While there are people hurting with no-one there to care, it will happen.


      • You most certainly have a good heart – compassionate and empathetic and respectful. 🙂 And no, people shouldn’t have to suffer so much that they feel their only option is to end their life, it’s a travesty. I believe that life itself has evolved so far beyond the way God or nature or the universe ever intended it to, that it has created a chasm between our what our highly evolved, yet sensitve and delicately wired brains can analyse, interpret and comprehend, and what they can untimately aborb or “handle”.without overloading. We can’t reverse society’s progression, but we can improve our understanding of mental illness in so many areas. Identifying those who suffer, supporting those who suffer, educating those who misunderstand, and on a more scientific level, identifying the triggers and cures available. There is amazing research to support the theory that our thoughts program our brain and can therefore reprogram our brain – that the terrible, negative thoughts that can consume people can be eliminated if they are taught how to teach THEIR OWN BRAIN to improve their thoughts and well being. Until the uncontrollable can be controlled, and the terrifying can be tamed, there will always be victims of the eternal struggle within. Too many lose, or give up….


  4. Your thoughts and words are so true Rachael – the neuroplasticity of the brain is an amazing thing, and it seems you can actually teach an old dog new tricks.
    If there was a majority of people who thought about these things, and took actions to support others who were struggling, what a beautiful world we would have to share. Positive thinking is one of my strongest tools to help me live well, with the new life MS has given me. I’m exploring what I truly want in my life, and letting go of the rubbish that detracts from my living experience. Life is good.


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